The Cleaning Diet.

So it was time for a change. I'm not liking it...yet. But I didn't finish looking through all the blog backgrounds to find the PERFECT one. I'm a freaking pink girl. I love pink and black. I'm missing my pink already but I think I'll survive. After all, it IS just a blog, right?

Psht whatever.

So I'm training myself this week and next to get my house in order and maintain it. That means laundry, cleaning, pantry, etc... ARGHHH have I mentioned before how much I.HATE.CLEANING.?? I really really do. I cannot stand it. There is so much I could be doing besides cleaning. Talking, blogging, Myspace addiction. Eating. Working out. Swimming. Watching TV. I won't bother to write SLEEPING in here anywhere because anyone that knows me would know that's a lie, because I rarely sleep as it is.

Why does cleaning have to be SO MUCH WORK? I mean, it didn't take that much to MAKE the mess, why does it take so long to clean it up? I pick an outfit, wear it, put it in the hamper. Done. But to clean it...gaw...Dump, sort, wash, dry, fold, hang, put away. And I NEVER hear the buzzer. And I ALWAYS forget about it, so I've got one load in the washer that is getting a little smelly and a load in the dryer already cold by the time I remember that HEY...I was doing laundry!! Oh well.

But this week has gone really really well. I am no longer embarassed by my bedroom. I can leave the door open now. WOW. I never thought that was possible. And if my bed sheets weren't so outdated, I'd post a picture.

My List of Goals:

• Learn to clean as I go.
• Learn to maintain.
• Lose weight. (For those of you who went through with this with me last year...shut up)
• Drink 8 ozs of water each hour. (I have a note on my fridge to encourage water drinking)
• No bread. Eww. I always hated this rule/goal.
• Let go.

I recently read somewhere that if your house and your car are in order, your body shortly follows. I'm hoping this is true. Because I'm ready to be happy with me and my home. I'm not making any promises of what I'm going to do, but what I am saying is that this is what I'm doing so support me or don't, just don't make me listen to the negatives...

Yikes.

So today I start 2 workers and that is supposed to free me up so that I can train myself to keep the rest of my house (meaning the non-business part) clean. Hey, if I can make sure the business aspect of my house is clean and presentable at all times, I should be able to pull this off, correct?

We'll see.

Seriously, wish me luck. I'm soooooo gonna need it!

Yah. THIS is why I'm HOTT!

OK. Despite my lack of blogging lately, and against my better judgement, I'm taking a cue from Wendy and going to do a list. Yes. A LIST. SO sad really. Like I can't be ORIGINAL. Whatev.

1. I'm sticking to losing weight this time. Last time I failed. Gained more. This time I'm actually doing it...and sticking to it. Imagine my surprise! Started at 210. Right now I'm around 176. Kind of a fluctuation between that and 173. It's all good. Goal: 150. I startedc at size 20 now I'm in a 12. Go me.


2. Heart=Broken. So much loss around me lately. A good friend of mine had a tragedy. My best friend is losing her grandmother the same way I lost mine. Reminders give grief hold...and the wound opens, accepting the salted tears, stinging in a way that I thought was put behind me.
   
3. I still love Grey's and Housewives. I DO NOT love that they are reruns.
   
4. I got a new hd.plasma 52 inch on my wall. Patrick Dempsey looks positively DELICIOUS on a 52 inch.
   
5. I'm emotionally exhausted. I'm physically exhausted. Ever been surrounded by so much death and sickness that you can't breathe? Ackkkkkk! 2 losses in 2 weeks and another 2 soon...:( & my kids have been sick sick sick so if one is sleeping through the night, the other one is not...but at least we are over that as of yesterday.
   
6. Picture day is Friday for Livi. I love picture day. Already planning the outfit. Yah. I know. I'm a mom. blech! LOL
7. I love this weather. It's ideal. A little cool, but not TOO cool. A little overcast, but not CLOUDY. This is THE weather. I LOVE when it's rained a little bit, although the sun is nice too.
8. I love myspace. I love yahoo messenger. I don't know why I'm telling you this, I just am.


9. Pics of me: 5/06 & 3/07 :

Losing Weight, Day 9

There sure isn't any fat Tuesday around here!!! I got up and worked out at 5:30 this am...and guess whaaaaaaaaat?!?!

199.8 lbs. baby!!!!!!!!!!! I am OFFICIALLY under the 200 lbs mark!

:::Dancin' a jig:::

Ok So, worked out, worked, worked out again, and before bed I weighed myself and was 199.4!!!! YEEEHAW!!!!

I'm liking this. I don't SEE the loss anywhere...but I won't argue with the scale!!! hahaha

It's actually kind of nice, walking and jumping outside on the mini tramp now. I get away from the inside of the house, where I am for most of the day. I get away from my kids for about an hour, which I think is healthy! I also do a lot of thinking out there by myself on the mini tramp. I have time to think now, and to separate the thoughts! I don't feel so scatter brained. Inside the house is always kids hollering or playing, either the TV is on, or the radio/CD player is. I never realized til recently how annoying that is...no wonder I've talked loud all my life!

• Beginning Weight: 207 lbs.
• Goal Weight: 145-150 lbs.
• Current Weight: 199.4 lbs.
• Pounds to GO: 54.4-49.4 lbs.

GO ME! GO ME!

Losing Weight, Day 8

I didn't get to bed til 1:30. Natalie woke me up crying because of the thunder storm about 5:30. There was NO way I was getting up to work out!

I weighed myself this AM. Same as last night. Bummer. Tonight is going to be a real toughy because we are going out to eat with our friend, Stephanie and her 3 kiddos. And we are going to Golden Corral. I love Golden Corral. But even moreso, I love Carrot Cake! :( Sadly, my temptations may overtake me! Oh, food, my lost love...why dost thou tempt me!? hahaha

I ate steak and a VERY small piece of Carrot Cake and Red Velvet Cake. I mean like, 2 in. by 2 in of each piece. It was very good. I was very much enjoying this divulgence.

Stephanie and her kids came back over to the house afterwards and played with the girls and I left to go walking again. I'm pushing myself now to jog farther when I jog...just looking at a line in the road and saying "just go to that line" and then looking for another one beyond it to "just go to."

I took a shower and weighed myself before bed.

Hot diggity dawg! 200.5! Only a few ounces, but hey, whatever works!

It's the TINY accomplishments that add up to great things...or SMALLER things in my case!!!!

Losing Weight, Day 7

Woke up this morning, got the kiddos dressed and we headed to church! Weighed myself...200.9 lbs. Yeehaw! Not too much lost there but hey, I'm slowly reaching the goals I've set out for myself

I have discovered something wonderful! You can make smoothies...fat free, sugar free, carb free, AT HOME! IN A BLENDER! and guess what?? IT ACTUALLY TASTES REALLY GOOD!

So my new favorite thing to eat twice a day is my fruits...just in a different way! Pop in some ice, a banana, strawberries, and drink it up!

We ate somewhere today. I have no clue where, I have forgotten. Wait! No, I DO remember. We ate at the Golden Palace Chinese Restaraunt. I ate only the meats and even then, not very much of them. Too fatty of a place to eat for someone trying to NOT gorge themselves on fat and carbs anymore!

I went walking tonight again and actually jogged a little bit more than usual. I am not getting out of breath as fast now and Garland and the kids sometimes come with me now so that they can play on the playground while I walk. Olivia tries to walk with me and for the most part, she can keep up, just too little legs trip her up so she mainly stays with Natalie on the slide!

I weighed myself again tonight. 201.0 lbs! EWWWWWWW the Chinese food did NOT help that!

Sigh...well I start working out twice a day tomorrow. (Monday)...maybe I can work that extra few ounces back off again!

Goal Weight: 145-150 lbs.
Pounds to lose: 51-56 lbs.

Losing Weight, Day 5

So, this diet thing is going well. I enjoy the fruits and vegetables, and I'm actually getting MORE energy walking and jogging and jumping now. I guess all those dr's and scientists were right about the exercise thing. I guess it's about time I pony up to the fact that I am a lazy person. I could have exercised before. I just didn't want to. I would rather eat chips and salsa and watch every lineup for the fall season of CSI's and Criminal Minds then get out and get healthy. I'm telling you, seeing my weight slowly declining is a real fire up my rear.
Most dr's tell you to NOT weigh yourself throughout an exercise routine. They say that if you don't see a decline in your weight that you will give up easier than if you don't know what your weight is at all.
I think that is bull. I look in the mirror and I don't really see where the few pounds that I have lost so far have come off of. I'm glad I'm weighing myself 2-3 times per day. (Using the same scale each time, of course) Because now that I see it declining, it's making me want to work harder. If I tried to continue on what I look like...I'd have given up by now!!



I went walking today but went later than usual so I ended up only walking 2 miles on the track. That's okay because I tried to speed walk, and that was fun, but alot of hip-shaking! hahaha
I got home and weighed myself before bedtime after my shower.
Current Weight: 201.8 lbs.
Goal Weight: 145-150 lbs.
56.8 lbs overall to go!

Keeping fingers crossed...

Losing Weight, Day 4

Ok, I was excited. This morning I weighed 203.5 lbs. I mean, how do you lose weight when you SLEEP?
Again, fruit...yippee! Some ham...it's almost gone!! crap!
Today Olivia had Therapy with her new therapist, Kristin. The change and transition is not sitting well with me. I like Kristin, but Wendy (Olivia's old therapist) has been Olivia's therapist for so long, we've both grown attached to her.
We made Olivia a book of pictures with Olivia and Wendy at past AG Bell things. I put some of her birthday pics in there too. I'm going to take a disposable camera with me next week and take some of Olivia with Kristin. Maybe that will help.
I forgot to eat with all the commotion before 6:00 tonight. So, I felt bad when Garland said "that's all right, understandable, let's go eat." So we went to Costa Azul and I ordered grilled chicken salad. I DID NOT eat the Taco Shell! No ranch, no cheese, no chives (ewwww), no guac, no sour cream (that was NOT cool!). Just grilled chicken with lettuce and bell peppers and onion. I only ate half since it was after 6:00. I felt guilty eating what I did eat. Thank goodness I still had my walk left tonight!

Monica couldn't go walking again, so I took a walk in a safe neighborhood where 3 of my friends could be easily reached in case something happened.
I went around the track for 3 miles. I was very proud of myself. 3 whole miles. That's a lot for me!
I tried some jogging. It went okay! At first it was hard on my knees and chest. But, just pushing on...

My weight tonight before bedtime 203.5 still. Thank goodness eating after 6 didn't throw that off!
58.5 lbs. to goal weight!

~Until next time~

Losing Weight, Day 2

Grapes, Strawberries, Bananas, Apples, and Carrots. Some 0 carb. ham. That's a nice change, the ham. Only baked/grilled chicken. Whew! I thought meat was only a memory.
I woke up early this morning and weighed myself. 205.8. Weight seems to not be moving anywhere but in ounces! So I put on my Sauna Suit. I went outside and got on the trampoline again. This time, I did a straight 15 minute jump. (Yesterday I only did 10) Afterwards, I took another shower and got ready for the kids to get here for the day.
For breakfast I ate grapes, apples, and strawberries.
For lunch I ate 0 carb. ham, some grapes, and apples.
For dinner I ate baked chicken and carrot sticks.
I do not eat after 6:00 anymore except for 1 snack. That has to be a fruit or vegetable. I prefer the grapes. They are sweet. The strawberries are a little tart.
After Garland got home, I cooked him and the girls their dinner and then went and got my hair cut (3 inches) and then went walking with my friend, Monica. We went walking at the park behind my house for about an hour or so. Then I took her home and came back home and took a shower, of course. haha
Garland went out and got a small chocolate pie for the girls. He said I could have a little bit of it. HEAVEN!!! OMG!!! HEAVEN!!!
Garland said it was better for me to have a little, that way I won't get the urge to binge, because I couldn't shock my body all at once with not eating all the things I was before.
Sounds good to me! Just give me the chocolate!
I felt guilty eating the chocolate afterwards. But it really was only a little bit. Garland says I'll have to wait a few days before I have anything else like that, so I can keep losing weight, but not shocking my system at the same time.
Before bed, I weighed myself again. I was scared because of the pie I ate earlier after my walk.
I was surprised to find I weighed 204.8 lbs.
59.8 lbs to go to goal weight.

Looks like exercise is the best route to go? Who would have EVER thought? hahaha

Losing Weight, Day 1

Ok. Garland took me to the store and bought me some workout clothes, some new tennis shoes, an AM/FM Radio Headphone set, and a sauna suit.
I'm not too keen on the sauna suit. Seems kind of HOT to me. I guess he knows what he is doing though, so...as long as it loses me weight I'll do it!
This diet sucks. Fruit is okay, I like it, I can even deal with vegetables like carrots and stuff. But no bread? No chocolate? Very little carbs?! (I'm a carb junkie!!)
I'll just die on this diet. I know. How can I NOT eat bread? NOT eat chocolate???
So I put on my Sauna Suit and went outside to jump on my mini trampoline. It hurts my chest to jump, but there really is no other way to lose this weight. I can't do a reduction first, then I'd really look odd! So instead of jumping up and down, up and down, I decided to go with the "Jogging in place" jump. The Sauna Suit is GROSS! I go to take it off and my clothes are completely soaked to the bone, including my socks and shoes. It's like a nasty sweaty waterfall when I take the Sauna Shirt and Pants off.
Ewwww. Immediate shower!

Tonight I weighed myself after my shower. 206.3 lbs.
It starts...
61.3 lbs to go to goal weight...hope I can make it!

~Until next time~

Losing Weight

So, Ok. I have decided that it is time to lose all this fat. Fat fat FAT! Even the WORD is fat. It's nasty. I can't even believe that I posted the pictures that I posted on here with how I look in them. I am never ever ever wanting to look or get this fat again. I'm tired of being fat and large chested. I mean, boobs are fine, make you look nice in a good looking shirt or dress, but MY GOSH! Do they have to be THIS big?

I weighed myself tonight, to see where my weight is at, and wrote down what my goal weight is in whatever amount of time.

Here goes:

Current Weight: 207.0 lbs.

Goal Weight: 145-150 lbs.

Amount of weight to be lost: 62-57 lbs.

Amount of time to lose weight: ASAP!

I have enlisted the help of Garland, who I know won't let me fail (which is why I enlisted him!), to help me on an exercise routine and diet.
The exercise should be fun, I suppose. It's always nice to get in shape and make your body feel better. The diet...well...SUCKS!
Guess we'll see how this goes in the following days...
~Until next time~